Once, a long time ago, I realised I wanted to have my own Tarot school, train practitioners and then mentor them through the process by providing opportunities not available to me when I first started out. As has been with all of my dreams, by keeping them fresh and close to my heart, they eventually materialised.
Tarot Reading school is one of the incarnations of my vision. I see my mission is to break down any pre-conceived ideas and fears around readings that is holding back the reader from realising their own dream of becoming a confident, successful practitioner.
While working with my students all sorts of questions and issues arise and while I was preparing this weeks lesson I was remembering all the times I was with a teacher or mentor and could not understand the language they used or the concept they were trying to teach me. I believe this struggle formed my reading style and my search for my truth.
I want to share some of the things I found really frustrating and how I came to understand what that meant.
“Don’t take on other peoples emotions, it is affecting you and you will one day feel someone’s heart attack and you will have a heart attack”.
This actually happened, albeit a year after it was said to me. What I found difficult at the time was the expectation that I knew how to shut that down. I tried really hard because my emotions affected me so deeply and when I asked “how” I was never given anything sensible to put into practice. I was constantly feeling washed out. I nearly walked away from Tarot so many times. I always returned though, Tarot and spirituality is my life.
The day after I experienced the heart attack the constant emotional fluctuations ceased of their own accord. Something within surrendered and I was able to continue. So what did I learn about this? I explored, through connection with my guides and, the spirit world, that this type of reaction is not out of my control, neither am I taking anybody’s emotions or experiences on. I am being triggered and the clients emotional state is connecting with my personal trauma. My Self Awareness work is the only prescription I have ever needed. Recognise and name my emotions. Do not give those emotional reactions a story. They will pass. This is simple, takes practice and it works.
“Unless you protect yourself you will be attacked/taken over by malevolent/evil spirits”
This was early on in my spiritual awakening. I was terrified of what would happen to me once I surrendered to the energy. I would see, feel and hear all sorts of things that I thought would get me. I practiced many rituals that made no impact on my fear or my power over this “negative energy.” I became easily manipulated by those around me who thought they were psychically superior to me because I thought they knew some big secret that I was not worthy enough to have. Know what….nothing bad ever happened. Lots of weird and interesting things happened (and that’s a story for another day)
Now, I don’t profess to know everything and I have heard some very weird and upsetting supernatural accounts from other people over the years. I would never tell them that what they experienced is not real, it is real for them. Hell, it was real for me at the time. What I learned, again through communing with my own guidance and connecting with my own inner wisdom is that I am in control of all the interactions I have with Spirit and energy. Let that sink in...I AM IN TOTAL CONTROL. This is my truth... there is nothing evil in the world of Spirit. Spirit is pure unconditional love. I was the only person assigning good or bad to all the spirit interactions I had. I understand, deep in my soul, that I have control of that. I know this because I put this belief into practice it for myself and it works. As an aside here, the fear completely left me when I attended Arthur Findlay college in England. World class mediums and a great atmosphere to experience the Spirit world with experienced teachers.
And finally, “You do not need to have lessons to be a good reader/healer. It comes naturally and those that go to class are wasting their time.”
Now, to be fair, this was not one person telling me this, this was something that was assumed across the board with all the spiritualists I was hanging out with in the very early days. There was manipulation, holding back information, control using fear and, lots and lots of ego. I let my ego run rampant and I thought I was so “spiritual.” I would repeat all of the rubbish I’d read and heard as if I was an expert. One day someone told me something that stopped me in my tracks and helped shape the reader I am today. They told me “You are not believable because you are not living the things you are preaching!” I am paraphrasing that, it was a long time ago but that is what I remember hearing. It was actually someone who was jealous and trying to gaslight me but what they said struck a chord. I knew in that moment it was true. Instead of letting that statement defeat me I became determined to learn everything about “my truth.” I learned to step into integrity with my spiritual work. This led me was to eventually step away from that cohort.
Once I lived my truth their behaviour was evident and it is one of those moments where you must separate yourself from something unhealthy to be able to thrive, and that is scary.
Once I began attending workshops and courses with ethical people I was able to make informed decisions about different beliefs and experience true compassion, sitting with another truth without judgement.
So here we are, back at the reason I wanted to teach practitioners. Why make this world so mysterious when it doesn’t have to be, it is open to all. Reading is fun and wonderful and life affirming and soul fulfilling. I am probably repeating myself but this work has literally pulled me back from the edge so many times. It is not just a business or a job. It is not a career or a vocation. It is not my soul path/journey. Psychic readings give me access to the world of Spirit and that is my whole life.
If you have that knowing in the depths of your soul I would love to walk with you some of the way and demonstrate the unique reading or healing style you bring to the world, your unique signature.
Tarot Practitioner Course Intuition Meditation Circle and coming soon, Reiki, Tarot For Self Development, Soul Coaching Circle.
With love, Vicki xx
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